Trying to remember what I know once was—
Life was not heavy, things weren’t wrong.
It didn’t even strike me that I needed to be strong
Trying to remember when such things as this were not
The centre of thought.
Trying to remember when love was stronger than fears
Laughter louder than tears
Anticipation outweighed regrets
And I could forget
The dark things that happened.
Trying to remember when I knew that I could,
Had no doubt that I would.
And that if I didn’t, I’d not be crying
Because, by gum, I’d had fun trying.
But I can’t find those memories
I can’t, I don’t, I won’t, not sure...
I wonder if those days just never were.